Today it seemed like my wife and I traded positions, one being angry while the other assumed a more patient, long-suffering temperament. The day started with me dodging verbal arrows and offering comforting words while she discussed how she was feeling. “You’ve changed all the rules,” “Our foundation has been shattered,” and so on. I tried to explain how our faith has been based in Torah principles all along and that letting go of Jesus is not going to send us all to Hell. “Don’t you worry that your choices will cause you to lose your salvation?” It was an honest question and my sincere answer was, “No. I do not believe G-d works that way. Nowhere in the Torah does it say that we have to identify a man, ‘believe’ in him and then have salvation.”
By the end of the day I had a headache and felt furious. I don’t know why but I had zero patience. Thankfully my wife pulled it together and let me vent for a while. After I had found about five different topics to rant about she said, “Wow. I sure am glad you’re still happy you married me.” Bingo! That was the brightest part of the day. She was right on.
After some time for reflection, I think I’m frustrated and pouting that she didn’t wake up today saying, “I’m ready to drop Jesus, let’s go and convert!” I really try to not be an idiot but sometimes I miss the mark.